Wednesday, June 27, 2007
ahhhhhhhhhhh. danced for efl. hmm shant say what happened cos i hope it wasnt obvious=x then, 4.30 danced again for the tchers and that was shit=( i stepped on my pants again. nobody will know shit i felt. argh. syf's memories are painful enough. i didnt fall today la, but.. it's.. still freaking scary.. and it's like the same part i fell during syf?! i just.. dont want it to happen again. can i like sew my pants again? it's really freaking long=(
it's wierd how blank my mind gets when i get on stage. i try to laugh things off , but there's this deep disappointment in myself. this year isnt successful.. dance, studies.. just hope things get better as time passes.
i need to scream. everything just makes me even more convinced not to join dance ever again. 22 july.. that'll be my last performance. and i really wish it can be over real quickly..
that msg still haunts me.. '' jia jia, lao shi zhi dao ni jing li le..'' wo ye zhi dao zhi ji hen jing li le.. dan shi hai shi bu neng ba shi qing zuo hao.. tian shi, qing bang bang mang..
it's wierd how blank my mind gets when i get on stage. i try to laugh things off , but there's this deep disappointment in myself. this year isnt successful.. dance, studies.. just hope things get better as time passes.
i need to scream. everything just makes me even more convinced not to join dance ever again. 22 july.. that'll be my last performance. and i really wish it can be over real quickly..
that msg still haunts me.. '' jia jia, lao shi zhi dao ni jing li le..'' wo ye zhi dao zhi ji hen jing li le.. dan shi hai shi bu neng ba shi qing zuo hao.. tian shi, qing bang bang mang..
what we could have been, 8:25 PM.
